:: sigh :: ..... I'm not sure what to think. Everything is changing. Last week, I turned in my application to Brighton Girls Camp. I feel good about being up there again this summer. I really believe I need that time to think. There are so many desicions that I need to make in this next year, that I'm not sure I'm really ready for. namely:
1. A mission... I feel really strongly about going, yet... it doesn't feel like I should. I do have school in the way. The most logical thing is for me not to go... I know that I have Brighton, plus later on in my life I can go with my husband. It's just a bummer that every time I think about it, it's a no... :(
2. School. Even if it were to feel right, I would be very much behind in school. I could deal with that, but things would be messy and complicated when I return home. I would have to try and apply for nursing school right when I get home, and then I probably would get married, or get annoyed that I have to wait to get married because of school and financial situations... it's a mess.
Anyway, I'm just going to keep doing the right things in my life and continue feeling this happiness that I've felt in the last 2 months. Everything is different. different like when I went to Brighton last summer. I'm me. I'm finally me; able to make right decisions, not too insane (haha), and feeling so much closer to my Heavenly Father because I'm finally doing somethig right.
I know I have a lot left to do, but I'm excited to keep these changes going. It's great when you look in the mirror, and there is a different but better person looking back at you. Change is good, when it's right. Make the right choices! Change for the better!
so long kids...
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I was in your place about a year ago. I know that everyone has to figure out what's best for them.
The best advice I can give you is to not worry about how school is going to work out. Looking at my school schedule this past year, you would think that the stresses of being newly-married would better be put off. My husband has been working full-time and slowing down his schooling so that I can get finished, too. Wouldn't it just make more sense to wait?
Yes, from a worldly perspective. Yet we both felt strongly that we needed to get married when we did. Honestly, I don't think that I could have survived the stress of the past year with out my sweet husband by my side.
Don't worry so much about the logistics that you can't enjoy life for what it is intended: living! When you're doing the best you can, everything else falls into place.
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