Wednesday, March 6, 2013

"The appropriate question is 'when' in the heck are they."


I just realized I never posted this. It was a draft in my dashboard... Here we go...


Some may have noticed my disappearance from blogging for two years... Well, lets recap.

Engagement:

January 14, 2009

After a long fight with Rich the day before, I didn't think I'd see him today. A year ago today, we told
each other we loved each other. We planned on going to the Spaghett
i Factory every year on this day (that's where we went a year before). He took me there before my Lacrosse game that night. Dinner was great, we were talking a little bit more, and not arguing as much. We drove to Kaysville for my game. We won! It was great and so much fun. Richard was so excited. On the way back to salt lake, he said "Hey you have your new camera and it's a nice night. You want to drive up over by Larry H. Miller's house and take pictures of the valley?" This is where both of us opened up to each other and told each other secrets about our lives, and such. I was so tired I said sure. We drove up there and he said "Th
at would be a great picture of the temple! You should take one." While I was taking the picture, I had no idea that he was on his knee behind me. Then he called my name. I turned, to find him with a ring on his knee asking to marry him. All I could say was "Hi?" I was in shock, but it was amazing. It didn't totally hit me until later, but I was so happy. I later found out he asked my parent's permission that same night before we left while I was in another room. So sneaky.

Wedding Plans:

There is too much info to fit into thi
s section. I'll just say it was sometimes a disaster. We picked our Photogapher Pete, because I was looking around online at photographers and I found a girl with the dress I had pictured in my mind. The funny thing was, she had the same future last name! We figured out wh
o she was and where she got the dress, and I did some of my own altering to it.
My bridesmaids dresses where made by the same lady who altered my dress, and she did a wonderful job. I think Mia, Ashli, and Muffy all loved them. (at least I hope)
The cake was such a fun thing to design. We chose Herita
ge Gardens as the venue (my cousin Kalli had her wedding there) I felt that the cake should be centered around my dress. So it had a sage green bow, and pearls. we kind of gave it a Alice in Wonderland cake feel. It was great. The top layer to save, brownie, middle, key-lime, and bottom sugar cookie. I'm not a fan of cake so sugar cookie was a good compromise.

August 5, 2009
I'm skipping... but plans can be told here. After a night of 2 hours of sleep (disagreements w/ my father) I woke up. Me, my mom, and Richard drove up to Lunatic fringe where the best chica ever did our makeup (me and my mom lol) and hair. Very early morning... Richard and I drove from there to th
e temple, where we waited which seemed forever for the ceremony. It was beautiful. Wonderful words were said, and the best spiritual feelings were present. It was sad not to have my parents there, but I was surrounded by other family and very dear friends.
Rushing back to the waiting room area in the temple, my mom helped me put on my wedding dress. It was gorgeous. I felt gorgeous. Mckinsey put beautiful orchids in my hair as well as my veil, and I was ready to go. Pictures galore were taken and it felt like a dream. We all migrated toward the Lionhouse where our little luncheon was held. The food was fabulous. I think I could eat 20 or more of their rolls.
Richard and I needed to check in to the place we spent the night before 4, so I changed out of my dress again and we were off. It was a weird feeling sitting in the car together, married. It felt like we were just imagining it. Just up the road was the reception center where we walked through what we were going to do for the ring ceremony. The place was beautiful. Sage green ribbon on all the chairs, beautiful table cloths, white orchids everywhere. I loved it. We only had one problem though. The weather was struggling and so having the ceremony outside didn't work very well. It was sad but it all turned out fine. My bridesmaids helped me get ready and we all walked down the stairs. I was already married, but I still felt nervous. A long time family friend spoke during our ceremony and it was a perfect fit. He said everything perfectly.
Reception... Long... I felt like we stood forever. It was fun greeting people and seeing my bridesmaids and bridesmen (lol cody and josh) wandering around talking to people seeing everyone enjoy the fun. My
brother's friend had a band that played, including my friend Dan on the sax. We ended the night with bouquet throwing (my cousin caught) garter (my friend Dylan) and swing dancing. The dancing was hard to do in my dress but it was worth it. Richard and I said our goodbyes and wandered off to our crazily decorated car and drove off.
Two days later, we spent a wonderful week in Maui, Hawaii.
Biking, hiking, surfing... just having an adventure. It was wonderful. I hope to go back soon. We had the condo my parents use sometimes and were just a walk away from the beach.  We traveled through the Road to Hanna and Lahaina. It was so much fun to be on an adventure with my lovely one. :)

adieu...

Just thinking...


Snowdrops in the Rain
Ivan Drever & Duncan Chisholm

It will take time, time before it’s better.
It will take time before the sun will shine.
It will take time for pain and hurt to wander. 
Let me tell you they’ll be snowdrops in the rain. 

All the time they gave us all their lovin’
All the time they filled us full of joy. 
All the time they spent with us was precious 
Let me tell you they’ll be snowdrops in the rain. 

We give our hands to help you through the heart ache.
We give our hands to help to ease the pain.
We give our hands for something to hold on to.
Let me tell you they’ll be snowdrops in the rain.

All the time they gave us all their lovin’ 
All the time they filled us full of joy. 
All the time they spent with us was precious.
Let me tell you there’ll be snowdrops in the rain. 

You know our thoughts are with you through the day time.
You know are thoughts are there to help you through.
You know are hearts are aching for your children.
Let me tell you they’ll be snowdrops in the rain.

All the time they gave us all their lovin’.
All the time they filled us full of joy. 
All the time they spent with us was precious. 
Let me tell you they’ll be snowdrops in the rain.

Let me tell you they’ll be snowdrops in the rain.

What to do...

It has been a LONG time... Things have changed drastically since my last post. I'm married, still in school, and struggling along in life unhappily. What happened?

Do you ever feel like you just make all the wrong decisions in life? I know I do. I'm in the worst place of thinking in the past and having no way to bring that past to the present. I'm still wondering why I was not accepted to Brighton those two summers I applied. I know Richard was around, but what is the deeper meaning?

I feel as though I've lost a limb. I've told this description to someone in my past to describe them as one that if I lost them as a friend or anything, it would be like losing a limb. I feel it's gotten to that point. I feel like such an idiot. I was ne'er clear, they were never clear. I knew their thoughts but at the time looked right past them as they were so hypocritical. Why couldn't I just get a simple straight answer. Why so much later am I stuck with the unhappy consequences. It was all right there in front of me and I was just a stupid girl. I'm still a stupid girl, but now with empty memories I dot know what to do with.

Would life be different? Would I still be struggling so much in school? Would I have gone in a mission? I can't help but look at the what ifs because I'm miserable. Old junior high/high school Clover thoughts are coming back again.

I don't know who will bother to read this, I just hope I'm not so easily read through this kind of vague speech as the one I am speaking of would read right through. That limb is hanging by a thread. Don't fall completely off just because I'm broken.

Hope for a better day...

Monday, September 20, 2010

Birthdays...

Thoughts to share across the vast space of the internet... Birthdays, aren't they supposed to be special? Aren't Birthdays a time to celebrate the wonderful day you were born on this Earth? Why are people so quick to forget them, tossing them away like they are nothing; just another day. Birthdays should always be just like they were when you were a kid, EVERY YEAR up to your elder years. Presents, games, pizza, cake, and ice cream. This is the one day you can feel spoiled. Why give practical gifts, i.e. food storage (unless that's really what you want)? You already buy practical things throughout the entire year. You're allowed this day for things that you'd like to buy yourself, but your unable to because of your budget and such; let's say your "wish-list". Even if you let someone know that, It seems like no one really sees or cares about the importance anymore. I'm sure it sounds selfish to say you should get gifts and have all the attention on you, but really what other day of the year do you get that chance?

Do you know how hard it is on people to have things like this ripped from them? It's like they are forgotten, no one cares. Just because you're older now and there are younger kids that may have their birthdays the same time as yours, doesn't mean that it's just that kid's birthday. You have the right to be celebrated too. It's understandable that gifts are expensive, but they don't have to be. You can be extremely thoughtful without being a bit expensive. Just knowing that someone truly cares about you on that day with at least one thoughtful gesture; even going in on a gift with someone else makes you feel loved. Never forget anyone's birthday, Never think that they won't care if you skip over them. EVERYONE deserves that child-like birthday you've always loved in your memories.


pondering....


Monday, May 12, 2008

Slowly falling asleep...

Well, math started this morning... coming too early for my brain. I miss my teacher John. He was great; knew how to explain everything about math. Now I have this guy that looks like the BFG so BFSLAM will still be easy for me to remember... haha. I'm a jerk.. oh well. I'm hoping that this works out. As long as I remember everything that John taught me, I should be okay. I'll have to search through all of my notes for the 'cards' that he had us write down.


I'm hanging out with my cousins today! I'm so happy about that. It has been forever. We are seeing National Treasure 2 at 4:00. So excited. I don't know what to expect from it, but it should be good.


I have found a new artist. Her name is Vienna Teng. I really enjoy her music. It is very calming. My cousin showed me an anime video on youtube, with Vienna Teng's song Gravity in the background. It is so pretty!! you should check it out. On her website you can click on listen and hear some of her music.
So right now, I'm just at school waiting for my boyfriend to get out of his class, cuz Mondays I have nothing going on. It's kinda boring, but at least I get to see a movie later.
So long kids.

Sunday, May 4, 2008

I am having the time of my life!

"the future..." I honestly don't wanna think anymore about it anymore. It's coming, and I believe I am prepared.

Summer '08

Phlebotomy school - May 19 - June 30
Summer Semester ( Math 1010 ) - May 12 - August 5
Work - all summer (money! save it! )
Florida trip with the fam - August 8 - 15

Fall '08

Fall semester - Medical

Spring '09

Spring semester - Medical
Job as a phlebotomist

Summer '09
Summer - Brighton or Summer Semester
My best friend gets home from his mission!

Fall '09
Fall semester - medical and then I'M DONE! Medical Assistant Certificate

-Apply for Nursing school
-Get a Medical Assistant job
--Hooray Future!

This is all I need to think about. School. If marriage happens, it will happen when it happens. No need to schedule it in. Focusing on school is what I feel I need to do. I'm a happy person. So happy. Everything is falling into the right place. I know everything will work out.

bye bye...

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Rockstar... energy drinks in general



What is the deal with energy drinks? See, I've actually stooped down low and drank a rockstar this morning... "I've made a huge mistake". These drinks may give you the rush of energy and alertness that they say they do with all of the vitamins and caffeine inside, yet in a few hours, I'll be on the ground, asleep ( well, not too that extreme, but close) . In a can of Rockstar Cola, the energy you have is made up of:

1,000 mg of Taurine
150 mg of Ginkgo Biloba leaf Extract
80 mg of Caffeine
25 mg of Guarana seed extract
25 mg Inositol
25 mg of L-Carnitine
25 mg of Panax Ginsing Extract
20 mg of Milk Thistle extract

What is this stuff?? and times this by two and you have the whole can... kinda gross. Not sure why people in this world drink it, because honestly... not so good tasting. If you want real energy, actually get some sleep ( which I need to work on ) run a bunch, and drink tons and tons of water, and honestly kids, you'll be awake. No more gross energy drinks with too much sugar, carbonation and weird random herbs. Just a natural high from the good things around you.

same bat time, same bat channel...