Slowly falling asleep...

Well, math started this morning... coming too early for my brain. I miss my teacher John. He was great; knew how to explain everything about math. Now I have this guy that looks like the BFG so BFSLAM will still be easy for me to remember... haha. I'm a jerk.. oh well. I'm hoping that this works out. As long as I remember everything that John taught me, I should be okay. I'll have to search through all of my notes for the 'cards' that he had us write down.

I'm hanging out with my cousins today! I'm so happy about that. It has been forever. We are seeing National Treasure 2 at 4:00. So excited. I don't know what to expect from it, but it should be good.

I have found a new artist. Her name is Vienna Teng. I really enjoy her music. It is very calming. My cousin showed me an anime video on youtube, with Vienna Teng's song Gravity in the background. It is so pretty!! you should check it out. On her website you can click on listen and hear some of her music.

So right now, I'm just at school waiting for my boyfriend to get out of his class, cuz Mondays I have nothing going on. It's kinda boring, but at least I get to see a movie later.

So long kids.

I am having the time of my life!

"the future..." I honestly don't wanna think anymore about it anymore. It's coming, and I believe I am prepared.

Summer '08

Phlebotomy school - May 19 - June 30
Summer Semester ( Math 1010 ) - May 12 - August 5
Work - all summer (money! save it! )
Florida trip with the fam - August 8 - 15

Fall '08

Fall semester - Medical

Spring '09

Spring semester - Medical
Job as a phlebotomist

Summer '09
Summer - Brighton or Summer Semester
My best friend gets home from his mission!

Fall '09
Fall semester - medical and then I'M DONE! Medical Assistant Certificate

-Apply for Nursing school
-Get a Medical Assistant job
--Hooray Future!

This is all I need to think about. School. If marriage happens, it will happen when it happens. No need to schedule it in. Focusing on school is what I feel I need to do. I'm a happy person. So happy. Everything is falling into the right place. I know everything will work out.

bye bye...

Rockstar... energy drinks in general

What is the deal with energy drinks? See, I've actually stooped down low and drank a rockstar this morning... "I've made a huge mistake". These drinks may give you the rush of energy and alertness that they say they do with all of the vitamins and caffeine inside, yet in a few hours, I'll be on the ground, asleep ( well, not too that extreme, but close) . In a can of Rockstar Cola, the energy you have is made up of:

1,000 mg of Taurine
150 mg of Ginkgo Biloba leaf Extract
80 mg of Caffeine
25 mg of Guarana seed extract
25 mg Inositol
25 mg of L-Carnitine
25 mg of Panax Ginsing Extract
20 mg of Milk Thistle extract

What is this stuff?? and times this by two and you have the whole can... kinda gross. Not sure why people in this world drink it, because honestly... not so good tasting. If you want real energy, actually get some sleep ( which I need to work on ) run a bunch, and drink tons and tons of water, and honestly kids, you'll be awake. No more gross energy drinks with too much sugar, carbonation and weird random herbs. Just a natural high from the good things around you.

same bat time, same bat channel...

An old friend...

Yesterday was hard. I made a quick decision that I'm not sure of. In the beginning of January, I came to the conclusion that I had to delete and completely erase a friend of mine from my life. In these past three and a half months, I believe that we both have grown from being apart.
I decided to accept him back into my life. He's become a completely different person. I am so proud of him. Finally his life is going in the right direction. He's going on a mission!
I have to admit, I was extremely scared by my decision, yet everything is alright. He was even unsure the decision, but I trust him now. I'm not the kind of person to stay mad or ignore for a long period of time. It's just mean to me. I hate to lose friends, especially ones that seek me for advice in their lives.
This friend of mine I will always remember, the fun times, the hard times; through it all we've grown spiritually. My friend has finally matured and is no longer the little actor boy, but a man; creating new and better roads in his life. Good work my dear friend.

adieu...

Funny Occurrence...

It was a normal boring day at the candy store... no customers, and slow busy work. Then, suddenly, Sean walked in the L-room and said that a lady driving a van attempted to turn left on 3300 south ( you know, the street with the trench ) and fell in the trench!!! really sad and unfortunate, yet incredibly hilarious. I believe she is okay, but that is all I heard.

I had the rude awakening of FINALS NEXT WEEK! blaring in my mind like a neon sign. I am scared out of my mind... dread has come over me and panic. I'm not sure what I'm going to do. So I'm chillin' out to Jack Johnson as I collect my thoughts.

homework I must...

For the longest time... woah oh oh...

Well kids, it's been a very very very long time since my last post. :: sigh :: I also noticed I forgot to publish a post from March... so I did so. heh.

At this precise moment, I am sitting in my English class bored out of my mind, dreading my math test later on in the day. :( oh boy.

Um, not sure what to say. My life is kinda dull, other than I'm still dating Richard :D so happy about that. speaking of... He got a job!! I am so happy for him! It sounds kind of boring, but hey, at least it's money.

I'm still working at the candy store. Yet, that is somewhat annoying at the moment. Along 3300 south, construction has made a HUGE trench in the middle of it. You can't turn left at all... and sadly since it snowed yesterday, I couldn't walk to work, so I had to take my truck which is dying by the way... as you can see, I am frustrated with this obstical of the week.

On a happier and nerdier note, I recently bought a gamecube came. It's Sonic adventure 2 battle, and it's so entertaining. LOVE IT. I think I play it too much..... I'm turning into a nerd!!! NO!!! must stop.... oh well....

Well, gots to leave to psych...

Current events...

I've had a pretty hard week. I believe I'll just copy and paste what I sent to my best friend who is on a mission right now.

March 5, 2008


Dear Elder Christensen,

Today was rough. I received a letter from Brighton LDS girls camp, and I was not
accepted. I was crushed. I could not hold back tears. Though after thinking about it, I am more
motivated to continue my goal of becoming the best I can be. There is still a possibility of me
becoming a counselor again this summer (alternate list) yet, as hard as it was for me to see earlier
today, I know what I will do if that option does not present itself. I am going to do all I can to
prepare for a mission. I can send in my papers at the end of August. I’m going to do this. I want
to do what is right. This feels right. If I find that a mission isn’t right for me at this time though,
there is always Brighton next summer. I want to look on this in the most positive way.
Also this summer, I plan on volunteering in a hospital, which will be very good
experience for me, since I am still planning on becoming a nurse. I’m also going to see if it is a
possibility for me to be a counselor at EFY for a week. Things will be okay. :) I’m still struggling
with the day, but I know I should not be discouraged, for there are other opportunities out there.
Everything is going to be alright.
Anyway, I just wanted to let you know. Take care.
Your Friend,
Becky

I'm not sure what the future will bring, but everything happens for a reason.

until next time...

sleep...

So, I haven't slept in the past three days. Why? I'm not sure. Probably random thoughts that I've suppressed over the past few months. Maybe stress from school or work or writing that certain missionary friend of mine. I'm just not sure. Sadly, it has made me sick. I've always wondered about that kind of thing. In the past, I was a psychology major, this kind of stuff still intrigues me. Now that I have learned to handle stress in a different manner, have I made it easier to build up all of my emotions inside? Will I explode from bottling things up without knowing it? Well, it's happening. I just don't get it. Some of the time, I thought maybe I was just hanging around Richard too much, and that was a stress. Though it would be more of a stress if I didn't have him around every day. Sorry to drag all who reads this into the vast space of a pinball machine brain I have. I'm just a psychological mess. Maybe in a few weeks, everything will be better. I hope.

Ta

Life... and stuff like that...

:: sigh :: ..... I'm not sure what to think. Everything is changing. Last week, I turned in my application to Brighton Girls Camp. I feel good about being up there again this summer. I really believe I need that time to think. There are so many desicions that I need to make in this next year, that I'm not sure I'm really ready for. namely:

1. A mission... I feel really strongly about going, yet... it doesn't feel like I should. I do have school in the way. The most logical thing is for me not to go... I know that I have Brighton, plus later on in my life I can go with my husband. It's just a bummer that every time I think about it, it's a no... :(

2. School. Even if it were to feel right, I would be very much behind in school. I could deal with that, but things would be messy and complicated when I return home. I would have to try and apply for nursing school right when I get home, and then I probably would get married, or get annoyed that I have to wait to get married because of school and financial situations... it's a mess.

Anyway, I'm just going to keep doing the right things in my life and continue feeling this happiness that I've felt in the last 2 months. Everything is different. different like when I went to Brighton last summer. I'm me. I'm finally me; able to make right decisions, not too insane (haha), and feeling so much closer to my Heavenly Father because I'm finally doing somethig right.

I know I have a lot left to do, but I'm excited to keep these changes going. It's great when you look in the mirror, and there is a different but better person looking back at you. Change is good, when it's right. Make the right choices! Change for the better!

so long kids...

So happy not to hide!

So, I've been dating this kid for a while now. we're both shy... and things were a bit awkward at first. We decided to keep it a secret from everyone. People still don't know.... I'm not sure why I had an issue with it, but I'm over it now. I'm happy to say I HAVE A BOYFRIEND!!! I'M IN LOVE! because if you love someone, why not tell the world... heh... well... i guess it doesn't have to be a total world announcement, but I'm not shy about it anymore.

The thing though that I'm excited about is... freaking people out. Oh boy... are they gonna freak. haha. tomorrow....

I feel good about this. This actually feels right. I believe that this is the only real time that something like this has felt right. well, we'll see right?

ah... so lovesick... ::dreamy smile::

until next time lil' troopers...

Wha?!? Not sure why...

I, Clover... am not familiar with this so called 'blogging' yet, I feel as though I shall give it a try. I blame this curiosity on my English 2010 professor, and Erin, because I looked at her blog. :)

The concept of this is much more sophisticated than those ugly random sites known as MySpace or Facebook. I have nothing truly against them, but this seems more fun to me.
I might as well introduce myself, seeing as this is my blog...

Ahem... I am Clover. I am a shy but rather opinionated girl full of inane theories... I spend most of my time, singing, acting, or doing various outdoor activities. Hiking, is my passion. While I am not filling my plate with the musical areas of my life, I research on my very 'unhealthy' obsession... Back to the Future. This, you will hear about I am sure later on in this blog...

As I look at the clock and have run out of time, I fare-thee-well.

signing off.....